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Finances, Faith & Fire: My Story As A Former Working Mama, Part 1

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I couldn’t wait to get my first job when I turned 16.

I remember nervously sitting in an interview in the mall food court hoping I’d get hired at Taco John’s (shutter).  Then, I graduated high school on a Wednesday and started working full time the following Monday. I worked full time for 18 years and I’m very thankful for those years in the workplace.

It’s where I learned what email was.

It’s where I learned that I had the gift of teaching and training.

It’s where I realized that following the crowd was not was I was supposed to do.

It’s where I leaned how to think business minded and not always on emotion.

It’s where I met some wonderful people, some awful people and some people that have forever impacted my life.

It’s how I met my husband.

Growing up I never imagined myself as a stay at home mom. I knew I wanted to get married but I never dreamed of being a mom, staying home and making English muffins and rice flour brownies.

The Lord slowly started to change that after I got married and we bought a house.  First was the desire to cook and create in the kitchen, then it was being a stay at home wife.  I wanted so badly to to stay at home and finally I realized that I did want to be a mother and once I found out I was pregnant there wasn’t one ounce of me that wanted to be a working woman anymore.

A Season Ending With No Regrets

I don’t regret the years I spent working before I had Wyatt.  Do I wish we’d have been wiser with our money?

Certainly who doesn’t wish they’d made better choices once they know differently?

Would I have liked to have been home with Wyatt from day one, sure.

I confess, I actually enjoyed working and I felt personal satisfaction with my job and felt valued for my gifts of teaching and training.  Working outside the home allowed me to meet some wonderful people that impacted my life in a positive way and some people that impacted my life in a not so positive way. Those people I learned how NOT to behave/act/treat others.

Slowly though, the satisfaction dwindled.  After 10 years things began to change in my heart and my mind. I knew the season of being a working woman was coming to a close as I start to feel discontent with things.  Little by little being at work, doing what I was doing and being with “those people” started getting to me. Things I knew I was gifted at and enjoyed became a burden and a chore.

The Final Chapter

Getting pregnant was the final chapter in that season of my life.

It’s funny how you’re content with life and don’t really expect a change but then when the Lord lays a change on your heart (fresh revelation, conviction, etc) you want it immediately – as in yesterday.  From the first blue line on the stick I knew I didn’t want to work, at least not at my full time job.

I found myself with this deep, deep desire that was stronget than almost any other desire I’d ever had.  It was so much a God thing I couldn’t hardly stand it.   I also found myself questioning why in the world God would lay this desire that was almost a burden on my heart yet not allow me to leave work?

Surely, I thought, I’ll just quit after the baby is born……..no……………

Then it was, thank you Lord, I get to work at home instead of the office…………………..then they pulled most of the home office people back to the office…..surely was going to quit then…………………..no……………..

See the Lord knew this deep desire I had, he put in me but He also knew more.  He knew there were things to work out.  We had things to work out.

Like finances, faith and a house fire.  

Here’s where this post is going to differ from the 25 other posts you’ve read about transitioning from working to being at home.
Most of them say something like“quit your job, have faith, the Lord has called you to be at home.” 

But I say Have faith, the Lord has called you home, follow His leading for your life and quit when He tells you.

See I wanted to quit for three years but He hadn’t told me it was time.  The desire was from God but I was trying to make it work in my timing, not His.  There’s a difference.  If we step out without His leading but with only a selfish longing to fulfill a God-given desire we not following His plan even though the desire came from Him.  The surrender to faith in Christ is not just about the desire but the fulfillment thereof.   We must trust that He who promised is faithful.

It took three years for the final chapter of my career as a working woman to come to a close. Those three years were filled with the most wonderful, awful, amazing things that I could never have expected……………….

Join me next week as I share the rest of my story; God’s story.

 

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Comments

  1. Thank you so much for this post. My son is three and a half years old and I’ve felt this pressure for a long time. You are right, this is the first realistic approach I’ve seen to this. There is a desire in my heart to be home, there is a growing desire to leave “these people”, and there are circumstances screaming “no”, yet God is calling and saying “wait”. Thank you , thank you!

    • Oh Amanda you are so welcome. I was unsure about writing this but I really felt it was necessary. If you are the only person who is touched by this post I’m still glad I wrote it! Blessings to you!!

  2. I want to stay home so bad I can taste it. I want to homeschool my kids. I want the whole thing, but my husband says, no. So, I work. I love and respect my husband and the choices he makes for our family. I am not always happy with the decisions he makes, but he is the head of our house and as long as he is making prayerful decisions, I have no choice but to honor those choices. Right now, God, through my husband says, work, so I work. I love my job and I love impacting families, but the minute I get the green light to stay home, you can bet I’m jumping in with both feet!! Thank you for presenting your story and helping me to continue to trust that no right now, means a bigger yes that is better for me when the time is right (obviously not my time!).

    • Rebecca continue to be faithful that the Lord will lead the way and even when you simply cannot stand it trust that He will give you the desires of your heart even though there looks like no way it’s possible.

  3. Do I really have to wait until next week for part two?????? I can’t wait to read it!

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